A Mother's Story.
- My first words as a mother were, "Don't drop him." It
was as if I knew, even before I held my first child,
that I wouldn't be able to hold onto my children.
- We were the family who lost half our children; over a ten-
year period, four of our eight children died, as infants, from a
rare mitochondrial disorder. After the babies died, I was sure
that nothing terrible could happen to us ever again.
- Not to us.
- Then, Yossi, our oldest child and only son, drowned
six weeks before his wedding day.
- As a child, Yossi loved playing with words. Once, when he
was getting ready for school, I said to him, "There are bagels
on the counter if you're hungry."
- He said, "Even if I'm not."
- "The bagels are on the counter even if I'm not hungry."
- After Yossi died, I grappled with long-held beliefs: Hashem is
close; everything that happens has a purpose; and our
neshamos continue to exist after we leave This World. The
comfort of these truths was there for me, if I was ready to
accept it, but also-as I learned-"even if I'm not"...
- At first, I couldn't find my way forward. I felt like Hashem
was saying, I'm asking you to do something impossible.
Do it anyway.
Even If I'm Not is the story of doing the impossible.
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